[tseuqertahcwen]

 

[enilgnitrats]

knee down
head up
eyes towards the track
mind flash
his past
floods the come back
heart break
loves fade
emotions wrecked
sun light
growth thrives
healing spirit

focus
a shot
starts the next race
pressing
forward
running his space

[ukiahnet]

ten years have passed since
he was here last and he can't
believe ten years passed

===


The vice president is now president
Nuclear war is a possibility
And we've suffered 45 and coronavirus
I need the next decade off this bs...

Much Love,
To any contributors still haunting the internet

sideline

why we don't fuck
we barely touch
when we speak
it's rough
is because I know
our bed you rolled
with him
he told me so
and it fucks me up
this karmic punch
its record still
untouched
cause what you don't know
bout who you stroked
is he's my
sideline ho

---

Editors Note | In the coming weeks, I plan to fill that twelve month gap I let build up in the Archive. More to come...

cycle

horny
we hunt
we choose
the cunt
we make
our case
he marks
our place

with his
passion
with his
stiffness
shows his
interest
we grant
entrance

our prey
secured
homeward
we creep
hardened
thoughts drift
seduc-
tively

enter
unzip
kiss suck
throat fuck
flip stick
deep breed
unload
hot seed

and af-
terward
when we
lay spent
after
he leaves
our cooled
presence

when doubt
asks us
what that
fuck meant
we will
ignore
repeat
again

dinner with a girl from high school

I can't tell if that's
disappointment in your eyes
or genuine surprise
that flickered when I
said I am into guys
that I've been with a guy
ten years, to my surprise
since you've steered the conversation
to so and so's ex wife
to he lost his job, that's right
to I can't have kids, I tried
to she's dating a white guy
to every single aspect
of other peoples lives
to the exclusion of an
important piece of mine
so I tell myself it's fine
sit across from you and smile
because the waiter is back
with that credit card of mine
the receipt, I quickly sign
before looking in your eyes
and wishing you a warm
but firm
goodbye.

ahmet

prelude

=

I hate writing this fucking poem
because you're dead
because you're gone
because the father
you chose to lean on
chose to kill
his gay son

I hate writing this fucking poem
because Ibrahim
is now alone
because the father
you chose to lean on
chose to kill
his gay son

I hate writing this fucking poem
because your father
is still on the run
because the country
you chose to lean on
chose to ignore
its gay citizen

although this hate
it fills me strong
I vow to keep pressing on
because the men
you've impressed upon
choose to fight in your name
for love undeterred

real

Be real
you know how this is
you knew
from the first moment
when with
a lie you started
that this
thing was bound to end
still I
moved in unwanted
due to
need unexpected
so we
have maintained pretend
an un-
-healthy partnership
we kiss
as if mandated
we talk
about surface shit
we move
on routine endless
but sex
out of the question
I think
we need to end this
before
our friendship gets bent
so the
question to you is
are you
ready to be real?

unrealized

it's been a while since
I've unleashed the heat inside
let the fire burn
relentless between your thighs
alone I fantasize
release the tensions that arise
while with you I live a lie
domestic bliss unrealized

drift

as I lay with you
my mind
it drifts to him
drifts to the nextime
that we
will meet again
when he will fill me
take me
so deep within
even though long term
I have
no interest in

brood

sometimes I brood
that’s just my mood
might have nothing
to do with you

most times I’m cool
play clown, play fool
while underneath
darkness speaks truth

I do not know
if I love you
the times we fuck
don’t think of you

I do not want
another tool
so here I sit
settled for you

all this I know
myself, can’t fool
so I just brood
unspoken mood



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mutual

tug
spray
with it yes
i want to play
lick my hand
apply wet glaze
shoot passionate
thought away

wet
dream
you twist mine
your dick I squeeze
pant and sweat
release hot cream
quickie kiss
two jerks come free

prelude to an end

I knew when
I let your long thick
behind me
within me
fucked it
and you were rough
inconsiderate
I knew then
it was the end

because you came inside
so quick
ripped off your condom
on the floor
left it
and walked away
chest puffed up big
like you knew
you were the shit

cheating with me
on your husband
who I 'd called over
to witness

who is sitting
in my den

videography

I used to wish
my life would stop
now I wish
I could fast forward
past the inevitable
mental rewind
and the lingering
aching pause
but I regain presence
press play
appreciate the moment
step forward
maintain

cigarette boy

black hat
white lips
back curve
meets hips

that defy stereotype.
i'm

attracted
your being pulls me in
attracted
i want to feel your skin
attracted
imagine coming within
attracted

to you.
and then you light up

fire
reflects addicted eye
smoke
clouds clear sky

with poison

penetrating you
seductively.

i wish your addiction
was me

de·si·re

I

Touch Him
Caress Him
Embrace Him
Molest Him

Knowing he has a wife at home
He has left his children alone
And me he refuses to phone
Until he is ready to bone

Still

I want him
I need him
I hate him
I love him

Because I know I am getting old
And his heat denies the cold
So despite the warnings told
In his arms I continue to fold

drunken encounter AKA flipside

Side A

"Say, bruh...

When I asked if you wanted to fuck
And proceeded to touch
Your face
Leaned in to taste
Your tongue
It was hotter than anyone
I had before
And when you opened the door
Pulled me to the floor
Lifted my shirt
Pulled it out
Started to jerk
Work
Me in a way
I can't even say
It's hard to replay
Because I'm not that way

I am not gay."

Side B

"Yo, man...

If I acted like I gave a damn
Had you thinking you were my first night stand
Got you heated as I slid my tongue
Calculatingly down your spine
Got into your mind
Like maybe this feels just right
Like maybe what I heard in church doesn't sit right
Like maybe my girl don't know how to do it right
Like maybe this might
Be the thing for me
Please
Don't let one night of pleasure
Cast your mind into thoughts of forever
Tempt your mouth to form the word together
When it comes to me
Because see
When you were asleep
Next to me
I knew we had done your girl wrong &
I knew you would try to string me along
Because I come strong
It's in my blood
This strength, so I don't need anyone
Won't allow anyone
To hurt me
And you might
'Cause you ain't right
And I am wrong
And you know what they say it equals when you add another
Brotha
I knew it when we kissed
That once it was over, we were finished
So my mind resolved this
Before my lips tasted your dick

I am not interested."

emptywords

He came
As he said the words -
I love you

And I said nothing.

My father
Often whispers -
I left you

My mother
Quietly screams -
I hate you

My spirit
Sometimes cries -
I need you

My heart
Slowly dies -
I miss you

Pain came
When he said the words again -
I love you

So I lied -
I love you, too

valentinesong

yoused 2 mean world 2
me

back when stupid was who I
be

back when thoughts of a
we

was all that life meant to
me

back when Lothario was you & Romeo was
me

& St Elsewhere you wanted to
be

so you crept into the web of an unknown
he

who walked talked & fucked different from
me

so I let you
be

though you claimed to want
we

because stupid I could no longer
be

after strength realized & whispered to
me

I did not need you to
be.

inbox

click
type click
I can't stop it
inbox check it
looking for him

ID type it
password type it
pressing sign in
thinking of him

did he send it
will I see him
my fear sets in
I just miss him

its addictive
so addictive
know its stupid
so damn stupid

still

click
type click
I am so sick
but click click click
I look for him