emptywords

He came
As he said the words -
I love you

And I said nothing.

My father
Often whispers -
I left you

My mother
Quietly screams -
I hate you

My spirit
Sometimes cries -
I need you

My heart
Slowly dies -
I miss you

Pain came
When he said the words again -
I love you

So I lied -
I love you, too

valentinesong

yoused 2 mean world 2
me

back when stupid was who I
be

back when thoughts of a
we

was all that life meant to
me

back when Lothario was you & Romeo was
me

& St Elsewhere you wanted to
be

so you crept into the web of an unknown
he

who walked talked & fucked different from
me

so I let you
be

though you claimed to want
we

because stupid I could no longer
be

after strength realized & whispered to
me

I did not need you to
be.

inbox

click
type click
I can't stop it
inbox check it
looking for him

ID type it
password type it
pressing sign in
thinking of him

did he send it
will I see him
my fear sets in
I just miss him

its addictive
so addictive
know its stupid
so damn stupid

still

click
type click
I am so sick
but click click click
I look for him

postitive: a dedication

if I am
will you be a man
about it
will you stay with me
be
my rock
watching the clock
to make sure I
don't miss a dose
toast
every
anniversary
birthday
weekday
because you want me to know
I am loved
no matter what

or will you run away?

if so say
hey
to my father
he did not stay
either

so I had to be twice the man

as I am
now.


dedicated 2 those touched

thankful

For years I thought I wanted you
had something my mind held on to
special I thought I saw in you
a truth that seemed to escape you

Life chose to reconnect we two
although I was not ready to
I met reality of you
an ego fiercely held on to

As a result we are now through
despite that I still manage to
give thanks for meeting the real you
so my heart could move on from you