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I used to wish
my life would stop
now I wish
I could fast forward
past the inevitable
mental rewind
and the lingering
aching pause
but I regain presence
press play
appreciate the moment
step forward
maintain

cigarette boy

black hat
white lips
back curve
meets hips

that defy stereotype.
i'm

attracted
your being pulls me in
attracted
i want to feel your skin
attracted
imagine coming within
attracted

to you.
and then you light up

fire
reflects addicted eye
smoke
clouds clear sky

with poison

penetrating you
seductively.

i wish your addiction
was me

de·si·re

I

Touch Him
Caress Him
Embrace Him
Molest Him

Knowing he has a wife at home
He has left his children alone
And me he refuses to phone
Until he is ready to bone

Still

I want him
I need him
I hate him
I love him

Because I know I am getting old
And his heat denies the cold
So despite the warnings told
In his arms I continue to fold

drunken encounter AKA flipside

Side A

"Say, bruh...

When I asked if you wanted to fuck
And proceeded to touch
Your face
Leaned in to taste
Your tongue
It was hotter than anyone
I had before
And when you opened the door
Pulled me to the floor
Lifted my shirt
Pulled it out
Started to jerk
Work
Me in a way
I can't even say
It's hard to replay
Because I'm not that way

I am not gay."

Side B

"Yo, man...

If I acted like I gave a damn
Had you thinking you were my first night stand
Got you heated as I slid my tongue
Calculatingly down your spine
Got into your mind
Like maybe this feels just right
Like maybe what I heard in church doesn't sit right
Like maybe my girl don't know how to do it right
Like maybe this might
Be the thing for me
Please
Don't let one night of pleasure
Cast your mind into thoughts of forever
Tempt your mouth to form the word together
When it comes to me
Because see
When you were asleep
Next to me
I knew we had done your girl wrong &
I knew you would try to string me along
Because I come strong
It's in my blood
This strength, so I don't need anyone
Won't allow anyone
To hurt me
And you might
'Cause you ain't right
And I am wrong
And you know what they say it equals when you add another
Brotha
I knew it when we kissed
That once it was over, we were finished
So my mind resolved this
Before my lips tasted your dick

I am not interested."

emptywords

He came
As he said the words -
I love you

And I said nothing.

My father
Often whispers -
I left you

My mother
Quietly screams -
I hate you

My spirit
Sometimes cries -
I need you

My heart
Slowly dies -
I miss you

Pain came
When he said the words again -
I love you

So I lied -
I love you, too